In the narrative of "Shōgun" by James Clavell, Blackthorne reflects on a profound bond that transcends physical presence. Despite often looking over his shoulder in anticipation of seeing her, he understands that she is not physically with him, yet he feels her constant presence in his life. This realization brings him a sense of peace rather than disturbance.

Blackthorne's love for her is unwavering, enduring through various stages and challenges of life. He recognizes that their connection remains strong in both joyous and tragic moments, highlighting the depth of his feelings. Even as he faces the inevitable changes and hardships, the memories of her linger at the periphery of his dreams, reinforcing the idea that true love remains eternal, regardless of circumstance.