Anders is plagued by unsettling memories that seem to escape him. He struggles to recall specific events, such as a tragic incident he witnessed shortly after his daughter's birth or his own reckless actions like crashing his father's car. These omissions highlight a deeper disconnection in Anders' life, suggesting he is experiencing a profound sense of lost time and memory.

As he reflects on these moments, he finds himself increasingly detached from the once-enjoyed books on his desk, feeling instead a blend of boredom and frustration towards the writers who create them. This shift in perception underscores Anders' internal turmoil and a growing resentment, as everything around him starts to evoke feelings of nostalgia or melancholy, further isolating him from the world he used to engage with.