In Jhumpa Lahiri's "The Lowland," the protagonist's love for Udayan is complicated and deeply tainted by a mix of conflicting emotions. Her feelings are overshadowed by anger, which disrupts her internal peace and serves as a constant reminder of their fractured bond. The intensity of her rage reflects her complex feelings toward his death, which she sees as a betrayal of the happiness he once brought her.

This anger stems from various sources—his choice to sacrifice himself, the trust he built, and the happiness that was fleeting. She feels wronged by the very ideals that connected them, viewing his actions as selfish rather than noble. This tumultuous emotional landscape reveals the struggles of reconciling love with loss, highlighting the difficulties in processing grief and betrayal.