"I notice an uncomfortable weight in my heart. Why do I care so much this boy, and why would I like it not? How is it possible for a single person to confuse me in this way?"
The narrator struggles to understand her intense feelings for a boy, questioning whether it's lust or something deeper. She acknowledges that he has expressed his feelings, which adds to her confusion, yet she remains unsure if his words truly mean something. Overall, she feels uncertain and overwhelmed by her emotional state, emphasizing her lack of clarity and understanding of her own feelings.