Now I stood at the base of a tree and thought, I can't do this. I remembered last night's climb, the grief and the loneliness. Here on the ground, I could keep that at bay. But up there… Rafe was up there. Maybe he always would be.
The protagonist finds herself at the foot of a tree, overwhelmed by doubt and fear. Reflecting on her previous climb, she recalls the feelings of sorrow and isolation that accompanied it. Standing on solid ground offers her temporary relief from these intense emotions, but she is acutely aware that climbing again would force her to confront them once more.
Additionally, she feels a strong connection to Rafe, who is already high in the tree. His presence looms large in her mind, suggesting that the emotional impact of their relationship and his memory might always be part of her experience as she grapples with her fears.
