The protagonist contemplates her whimsical thoughts about being playful with a man she finds attractive. Although she's indulged in this fantasy numerous times, she reassures herself that such actions are unlikely to happen in reality. This internal dialogue reveals her tension between desire and self-restraint.
However, she acknowledges that if she were to ever follow through with her playful impulse, she would want to embrace the moment fully, ensuring that the experience is memorable. This reflection highlights her conflicted feelings about attraction and the allure of taking risks in relationships.