The character experiences cycles of indulgence in poetry, often seeking solace in bookstores or libraries, where he explores the world of lesser-known magazines. While he acknowledges that much of what he reads is subpar, he still finds value in the escapism it provides. Poetry acts as both a crutch and a comfort, revealing the complexities of his emotional landscape. His fascination lies particularly with deceased poets, as they represent a connection to the past that he finds alluring.

Occasionally, he stumbles upon a work that resonates deeply with him, offering an intense emotional experience that nothing else can replicate. This dichotomy of feeling simultaneously grounded and elevated speaks to his need for poetry in his life. Through these readings, he grapples with profound feelings, allowing the language of living and dead poets to engage with his innermost thoughts and vulnerabilities.