The character reflects on her profound sense of loss and disconnection from her children, contrasting it with her lack of self-knowledge. While she mourns not knowing where her children are buried or their appearances, she realizes that she has a deeper understanding of them than of herself. This highlights her emotional turmoil, as she grapples with her identity in the shadow of such grief.

She questions fundamental aspects of her own existence, pondering her abilities, beauty, and relationships. She wonders whether she could have been a nurturing mother or a loving partner, and considers the possibility of having a sister who may share her traits. This introspection reveals her longing for connection and understanding, both with her children and within herself.