She had always told herself that she did hti job because she wanted to help others; afterall, hadn't Maurice told her once that the most important question any individual could ask was, "How might I serve?" If her response to that question had been pure, surely she would have coninued with the calling to be a nurse.... But that role hadn't been quite enough for her. She would have missed the excitement, the thrill when she embarked on the work of collecting clues to support a case.
The protagonist reflects on her motivations for becoming a nurse, recalling the advice of Maurice, who emphasized the importance of serving others. Although she initially believed her desire to help was genuine, she ultimately felt unfulfilled in her role as a nurse. The sense of purpose she sought was overshadowed by a longing for something more exhilarating.
Eventually, she realizes that her true passion lies in the excitement of solving mysteries and collecting clues for cases. This revelation highlights her need for adventure and intellectual stimulation, which nursing alone could not provide. Thus, she is drawn away from her nursing career to pursue a more thrilling path.
