The character in the narrative struggles with the idea of documenting her love, initially rejecting the notion as it seems to undermine the depth of their relationship. She finds it profoundly difficult to reconcile the permanence of love with the possibility of forgetfulness, as it challenges her perception of what it means to cherish memories. Her love leads her to resist the idea of writing down their experiences.
Eventually, she agrees to record her thoughts, but her lack of enthusiasm is evident in the notebooks she keeps. The numerous blank pages and incomplete entries reflect her internal conflict and ambivalence towards the task, indicating that the act of writing can’t capture the true essence of her emotions. This highlights the theme of memory's fragility and how love transcends mere documentation.