The protagonist is mesmerized by a girl who stands out from everyone else he knows. He feels a strong desire to be around her constantly, and when they are together, he struggles to express himself due to the overwhelming feelings she evokes. Her presence significantly impacts him, making it challenging to articulate his thoughts and emotions.

This internal conflict raises questions about the nature of his feelings. He suspects he might be in love, yet he grapples with uncertainty because his previous experiences of love have been fictional, crafted for him in books. The struggle to differentiate real emotions from those inspired by literature adds depth to his journey of discovering genuine love.