Survive long enough and you get to a far point in life where nothing else of particular interest is going to happen. After that, if you don't watch out, you can spend all your time tallying your losses and gains in endless narrative. All you love has fled or been taken away. Everything fallen from you except the possibility of jolting and unforewarned memory springing out of the dark, rushing over you with the velocity of heartbreak. May walking down the hall humming an old song-"The Girl I Left Behind Me"-or the mere fragrance of clove in spiced tea can set you weeping and howling when all you've been for weeks on end is numb.
As we navigate through life, we reach a stage where it seems that nothing significant happens anymore. This period can lead to an intense focus on past experiences, leading to a fixation on our losses and gains. When we find ourselves in this situation, we may recognize that much of what we held dear has slipped away, leaving only memories and a longing for what once existed.
In these moments of reflection, unexpected memories can surface, evoking profound feelings. Even something as simple as an old tune or a familiar scent can stir deep emotions, breaking through the numbness that has settled in during challenging times. The intensity of these memories, charged with heartbreak, reveals the fragility of our emotional state and the weight of our past experiences.
