There he is then, the unfortunate brute, quite miserable because of me, for whom there is nothing to be done, and he so anxious to help, so used to giving orders and to being obeyed. There he is, ever since I came into the world, possibly at his instigation, I wouldn't put it past him, commanding me to be well, you know, in every way, no complaints at all, with as much success as if he were shouting at a lump of inanimate matter.
The passage depicts a sense of guilt and frustration experienced by the narrator towards an individual who seems burdened by the narrator's existence. This person, characterized as an unfortunate brute, has always been there, attempting to offer support and guidance, yet feels powerless to effect any real change. The narrator reflects on how this figure has commanded them to be well, revealing the futility of such commands in their life.
Moreover, the narrator acknowledges their own struggles and the inability to meet the expectations imposed by this individual. The analogy of the brute's commands being akin to shouting at an inanimate object emphasizes the disconnect between intention and the reality of their situation. This highlights a deep sense of helplessness and the complexities within their relationship, marked by a persistent longing for betterment that remains unfulfilled.