There were times, in my search for weightlessness, that I pushed too hard. Drank too much. Inhaled more than I should. Became physical with guys who were no good for me. I would go beyond weightlessness as a balloon on a string that had been snapped-left alone in a frightening abyss. With one touch, Isaiah could ground me. Keep me from floating away with his arms as my anchor. His steady beating heart the reminder he would never let go.
In the pursuit of a feeling of weightlessness, the narrator reflects on moments of excess and poor choices that led them to lose control. They engaged in reckless behavior, including heavy drinking and unhealthy relationships, which pushed them beyond their limits and left them feeling lost, much like a balloon that has escaped its tether and is now floating aimlessly in a daunting space.
However, the presence of Isaiah represents a source of stability and reassurance in this chaotic journey. His embrace serves as an anchor, providing the grounding the narrator desperately needs. Isaiah's unwavering support and connection remind them of the importance of love and stability, preventing them from drifting away into uncertainty.