They had had no opportunity to speak, though-and he could not seem to invent a pretext, let alone think what he might say if he found one. He felt amazingly self-conscious, like a boy unable to say anything to an attractive girl. He'd be blushing, next thing, he thought, disgusted with himself.
The character struggles with an overwhelming sense of self-consciousness and insecurity when facing someone he's drawn to. He feels a strong urge to communicate but is paralyzed by his inability to find the right words or situation to initiate a conversation. This inner turmoil amplifies his embarrassment and frustration, likening his experience to that of a young boy who hesitates to approach a girl he finds appealing.
His self-awareness highlights his...
