The protagonist grapples with the notion of suffering and her own self-worth. She feels that merely existing to endure pain and life’s injuries is beneath her capabilities. This reflection leads her to question whether her high regard for herself is misguided or vain, prompting deeper thoughts about value and existence.

Moreover, she contemplates the fragility of what is deemed valuable in history, recognizing that precious things often face destruction. This raises a painful realization—perhaps true worth is linked to suffering, leaving her to ponder the harsh reality that being exceptional might lead to greater misery.