To study the self is to forget the self. Maybe if you sat enough zazen, your sense of being a solid, singular self would dissolve and you could forget about it. What a relief. You could just hang out happily as part of an open-ended quantum array.
Ruth Ozeki's "A Tale for the Time Being" suggests that self-exploration leads to the dissolution of the individual self. Engaging in zazen, or seated meditation, allows one to transcend the idea of a singular identity. This process can ultimately bring a sense of relief and freedom, allowing individuals to experience life in a more expansive, interconnected way.
Through deep meditation, the notion of a stable self fades, transforming one's perception of existence. Instead of feeling confined to a distinct identity, one can appreciate being part of a broader, dynamic experience, akin to a quantum array of interconnectedness with the world around them.