In the book "Good Men" by Arturo Pérez-Reverte, the character expresses a deep sense of disappointment and loss regarding their experiences in Spain. The sentiment reflects a longing to escape the confines of urban life and seek solace among those deemed 'barbarians,' individuals who are often viewed as more genuine and raw than city dwellers. This feeling of desolation highlights a yearning for authenticity and connection beyond the complexities of civilization.
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