What bothered Ruth was that she needed to be with Rooie again -- just to see, as in a story, what would happen next. That meant Rooie was in charge.
Ruth felt a deep longing to reunite with Rooie, as if their connection held the potential for an unfolding narrative. This desire highlights her craving for a sense of direction in her life, one that revolves around Rooie's influence and presence.
By acknowledging Rooie as the one in control of their relationship, Ruth's emotions reflect a blend of dependency and curiosity. She finds herself drawn back into a dynamic that is both familiar and unpredictable, eager to discover the next chapter in their story together.