In "The Lady Elizabeth" by Alison Weir, the protagonist revels in the allure of admiration and desire from others. Her enjoyment stems from being pursued and sought after, which offers her a sense of power and validation. This admiration fuels her confidence and status in society, allowing her to navigate her world with a sense of agency and allure.
However, despite this enjoyment, she harbors a deep-seated fear of commitment. The notion of being "caught" suggests a loss of autonomy and freedom that she is unwilling to accept. Thus, while she craves the attention and affection of admirers, she is cautious about fully surrendering to a relationship that may diminish her independence.