When I went back into the kitchen, I wanted to sit on my mum's lap. I know that sounds stupid and babyish , but I couldn't help it. On my sixteenth birthday, I didn't want to be sixteen, or fifteen or anyteen. I wanted to be three or four, and too young to make any kind of mess
The narrator expresses a deep sense of nostalgia and yearning for childhood during a pivotal moment on their sixteenth birthday. Despite being a teenager, they feel overwhelmed by the expectations and responsibilities that come with growing up. The desire to sit on their mother's lap symbolizes a longing for comfort and security that seems lost with age.
This yearning for a simpler time, where life was less complicated, reveals the internal struggle many face when transitioning into adulthood. Rather than embracing their age, the narrator wishes to return to a time of innocence and freedom from adult worries, highlighting the emotional complexities of growing up.
