Yes, I feel the moment has come for me to look back, if I can, and take my bearings, if I am to go on. If only I knew what I had been saying. Bah, no need to worry, it can only have been one thing, the same as ever. I have my faults, but changing my tune is not one of them. I have only to go on, as if there was something to be done, something begun, somewhere to go. It all boils down to a question of words, I must not forget this, I have not forgotten it. But I must have said this before, since I say it now.
The narrator reflects on the necessity of introspection to understand his current state and future direction. He expresses a desire to recall his past words and thoughts, yet finds himself uncertain, concluding it's likely a repetition of his usual sentiments. This focus on looking back suggests a struggle with self-awareness and an acknowledgment of his persistent flaws.
Despite the uncertainty, he decides to keep moving forward, driven by an instinct to discover new purpose. His realization emphasizes the importance of language and its role in shaping thoughts and actions. The cyclical nature of his musings indicates an ongoing internal dialogue that blends reflection with the potential for renewal.
