You have to be very deep to be dead, he thought, and I'm not. He began to have some concept of forever, and his mind shivered as his body had when he had wakened in the cold nights and thrust his hands between his thighs to keep warm. It will be a long night, he thought.
The protagonist reflects on the profound nature of existence and death, realizing that one must fully embrace the depths of life to truly understand the concept of being dead. He introspects and acknowledges his own experiences, recognizing that he is still very much alive and not ready to confront the finality that death represents.
As he contemplates eternity, a sense of unease washes over him, reminiscent of the physical discomfort he feels in the cold. This awareness leads him to anticipate a long and challenging night ahead, symbolizing both an internal struggle and the uncertainties of life and death that he must navigate.
