Freud was fascinated with depression and focused on the issue that we began...

Freud was fascinated with depression and focused on the issue that we began with-why is it that most of us can have occasional terrible experiences, feel depressed, and then recover, while a few of us collapse into major depression {melancholia}? In his classic essay "Mourning and Melancholia" {1917}, Freud began with what the two have in common. In both cases, he felt, there is the loss of a love object. {In Freudian terms, such an "object" is usually a person, but can also be a goal or an ideal.} In Freud's formulation, in every loving relationship there is ambivalence, mixed feelings-elements of hatred as well as love. In the case of a small, reactive depression-mourning-you are able to deal with those mixed feelings in a healthy manner: you lose, you grieve, and then you recover. In the case of a major melancholic depression, you have become obsessed with the ambivalence-the simultaneity, the irreconcilable nature of the intense love alongside the intense hatred. Melancholia-a major depression-Freud theorized, is the internal conflict generated by this ambivalence. This can begin to explain the intensity of grief experienced in a major depression. If you are obsessed with the intensely mixed feelings, you grieve doubly after a loss-for your loss of the loved individual and for the loss of any chance now to ever resolve the difficulties. "If only I had said the things I needed to, if only we could have worked things out"-for all of time, you have lost the chance to purge yourself of the ambivalence. For the rest of your life, you will be reaching for the door to let you into a place of pure, unsullied love, and you can never reach that door. It also explains the intensity of the guilt often experienced in major depression. If you truly harbored intense anger toward the person along with love, in the aftermath of your loss there must be some facet of you that is celebrating, alongside the grieving. "He's gone; that's terrible but…thank god, I can finally live, I can finally grow up, no more of this or that." Inevitably, a metaphorical instant later, there must come a paralyzing belief that you have become a horrible monster to feel any sense of relief or pleasure at a time like this. Incapacitating guilt. This theory also explains the tendency of major depressives in such circumstances to, oddly, begin to take on some of the traits of the lost loved/hated one-and not just any traits, but invariably the ones that the survivor found most irritating. Psychodynamically, this is wonderfully logical. By taking on a trait, you are being loyal to your lost, beloved opponent. By picking an irritating trait, you are still trying to convince the world you were right to be irritated-you see how you hate it when I do it; can you imagine what it was like to have to put up with that for years? And by picking a trait that, most of all, you find irritating, you are not only still trying to score points in your argument with the departed, but you are punishing yourself for arguing as well. Out of the Freudian school of thought has come one of the more apt descriptions of depression-"aggression turned inward." Suddenly the loss of pleasure, the psychomotor retardation, the impulse to suicide all make sense. As do the elevated glucocorticoid levels. This does not describe someone too lethargic to function; it is more like the actual state of a patient in depression, exhausted from the most draining emotional conflict of his or her life-one going on entirely within. If that doesn't count as psychologically stressful, I don't know what does.

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