In Milan Kundera's book "Edward And God," the protagonist grapples with the concept of God, experiencing a mix of pleasure and yearning for the divine. His internal struggle centers on an almost paradoxical relationship with faith, as he contemplates the notion of God while simultaneously feeling a strong belief that such an entity may not exist. This creates a tension between his longing for spirituality and the rational doubts that plague him.

This conflict highlights the complexity of belief and atheism, showcasing how the human mind can be drawn to the idea of a higher power even when rational thought suggests otherwise. Kundera delves into themes of existentialism and the search for meaning, illustrating how the desire for God remains a powerful force in a world that often doubts His existence.