A man who wants to die feels angry and full of life and desperate and bored and exhausted, all at the same time; he wants to fight everyone, and he wants to curl up in a ball and hide in a cupboard somewhere. He wants to say sorry to everyone, and he wants everyone to know just how badly they've all let him down.
The quote from Nick Hornby's "A Long Way Down" captures the complex emotional state of someone contemplating death. This person is enveloped in a whirlwind of feelings: anger, vitality, desperation, boredom, and exhaustion coexist within him. The conflict between the urge to fight against external forces and the desire to retreat into solitude highlights the intensity of his turmoil.
Additionally, the individual grapples with a need for connection, wanting to apologize...
