The character feels a strong sense of disdain for the general preferences of a woman who admires him. This irony frustrates him because, despite not fitting her typical taste, he remains one of her favored individuals. He finds it perplexing and cannot understand why he stands out in her eyes.
This internal conflict reflects his struggle with self-identity and the arbitrary nature of attraction. The man's dislike for her choices makes his unexpected popularity with her all the more confounding, leaving him to ponder the complexities of relationships and personal appeal.