Believing isn't the hard part; waiting on God is. So I stuck with it and prayed impatiently for patience, and to stop feeling disgusted by myself, and to believe for a few moments that God, just a bit busy with other suffering in the world, actually cared about one menopausal white woman on a binge.
In her book "Plan B: Further Thoughts on Faith," Anne Lamott reflects on the challenge of faith and the struggle of trusting in God's timing. She suggests that while believing in God is not particularly difficult, waiting for His answers can be a trial. This tension often leads to feelings of impatience and self-doubt, especially during personal struggles.
Lamott shares her experience of praying for patience and relief from her feelings of disgust towards herself. She expresses a desire to hold onto faith, even when it seems like God is more focused on the widespread suffering in the world than on her individual struggles as a menopausal woman grappling with her own issues. Through this, she highlights the personal and poignant nature of seeking solace and understanding in faith.
