But also I'm hungry. This is monstrous, but nevertheless it's true. Death makes me hungry. Maybe it's because I've been emptied; or maybe it's the body's way of seeing to it that I remain alive, continue to repeat its bedrock prayer: I am, I am. I am, still. I want to go to bed, make love, right now. I think of the word relish. I could eat a horse.
The character expresses a deep, almost primal hunger that arises in the face of death and emptiness. This hunger could symbolize a yearning for life or a visceral need to feel alive, highlighting the instinctual drive to survive despite the horrors surrounding them. The juxtaposition of death and a desire for vitality illustrates a conflict between despair and the will to exist.
The mention of wanting to go to bed and make love further emphasizes the character's longing for connection and intimacy. The term "relish" conveys a profound appreciation for life’s pleasures, while the hyperbolic expression of wanting to eat a horse underscores this insatiable hunger for experience and existence amidst a bleak reality. Through these reflections, the author captures the complexity of human desires in the face of mortality.
