But how can I begin writing when I do not know whether I shall have time enough, and the torture comes when you say to yourself, 'Yesterday there would have been enough time'-and again you think, 'If only I had begun yesterday …' And instead of the clear and precise work that is needed, instead of a gradual preparation of the soul for that morning when it will have to get up, when-when you, soul, will be offered the executioner's pail to wash in-Instead, you involuntarily indulge in banal senseless dreams of escape-alas, of escape …
In "Invitation to a Beheading," Vladimir Nabokov explores the theme of procrastination and the anguish it creates. The narrator grapples with the daunting task of starting a writing project, feeling overwhelmed by the constraints of time. This inner conflict manifests as a cycle of regret over missed opportunities to begin, leading to self-inflicted torment as he reflects on specific moments when he could have taken action.
The struggle between artistic aspiration and the paralysis of overthinking is evident. Instead of focusing on productive work, the narrator finds himself lost in futile thoughts of escape, highlighting a deep-seated fear of confrontation. This depiction of hesitation not only underscores the challenges of creativity but also the broader human experience of grappling with time and choice.
