For a while, Mirabelle believes there will be a moment when he will cave in and let himself love her, but eventually she lets the idea go. She hits bottom. She dwells in the muck for several months, not depressed exactly, but involved in a mourning that at first she thinks is for Ray but soon realizes is for the loss of her old self.
Mirabelle initially holds onto the hope that Ray will eventually reciprocate her feelings and allow himself to love her. However, as time passes, she comes to terms with the futility of this expectation and eventually releases the notion completely. This leads her to experience a period of deep reflection where she grapples with her emotions.
During these months, Mirabelle finds herself in a state of mourning, not so much for Ray but for the version of herself that she has lost. This realization marks a turning point for her as she acknowledges the emotional toll of her unrequited love and begins to confront her own identity and the changes in her life.
