The protagonist reflects on her inner turmoil and struggles with her identity, questioning whether she has made unrealistic promises or felt intense hatred towards others. She is captivated by the idea of betrayal, contemplating how it has influenced her thoughts and reality, creating a narrative only she understands. These reflections lead her to wonder about the timeline of her emotional desolation and the events that have contributed to her current state of being.
She grapples with the pain of memory, pondering the moments that have faded away and the essence of the person she used to be. This journey through her psyche reveals a deeper understanding of her self-neglect and the emotional scars she carries, which serve as a poignant reminder of her complexities and the consequences of her past actions.