He felt - washed clean, healed. He felt if he could just live here he would be all right. He felt as if he had never been alive before. He felt at ease with himself and as if he had come home to a place where he could be himself, without hiding anything, without pretending even to himself. He felt, thinking his way back up the beach, as if his brain had just woken up from some long sleep, and it wanted to run along beside the waves, to see how far and fast it could go.
The character experiences a profound sense of renewal and clarity, feeling as if he has been cleansed and healed. This newfound serenity allows him to envision a life where he can truly be himself, free from pretense and with a deep sense of belonging. The environment feels like a home that nurtures his true identity, enabling him to embrace his feelings without reservation.
As he reflects while walking along the beach, he perceives a mental awakening, akin to a long-overdue revival of his consciousness. The vivid imagery of wanting to race alongside the waves symbolizes his longing for freedom and the joy of living fully in the moment, suggesting a transformative journey towards self-discovery and acceptance.
