He felt whole and clean and full of light. Of course he would mess up again. He could never be perfect. But at least now he had assurance. If the bullet hit him next time, he'd go from life on earth to life in heaven.
The character experiences a profound sense of wholeness and illumination, feeling renewed and cleansed. Although he acknowledges his imperfections and the inevitability of making mistakes again, he takes comfort in the assurance he has gained. This newfound belief provides him with peace amidst the uncertainties of life.
He is prepared for whatever may come next, even the possibility of death. The thought of transitioning from life on earth to life in...