He had thrilled to his own power only in the throes of sex, when he didn't have the presence of mind to know that pleasure wouldn't last forever, and in the flush of freedom, when he was too innocent to know he wasn't free.Now he seized the power that came from that collision of sex with freedom called love.
The protagonist experiences moments of exhilaration through sexual encounters, becoming momentarily aware of his own power. In those instances, he loses himself in the pleasure of the moment, forgetting that such enjoyment is fleeting. At times, he feels a sense of innocence, believing he is truly free and unrestrained.
As he evolves, he comes to recognize a deeper form of power that arises from the intertwining of love with both sexuality and personal freedom. This realization allows him to embrace a more profound understanding of connections and emotional depth, beyond the transient moments of pleasure he previously knew.
