I listened humbly, resentfully. I knew I did not have charm. Neither Laura nor I had it. We were too secretive for charm, or else too blunt. We'd never learned it, because Reenie had spoiled us. She felt that who we were ought to be enough for anybody. We shouldn't have to lay ourselves out for people, court them with coaxings and wheedlings and eye-batting displays.
In "The Blind Assassin," the narrator reflects on personal shortcomings, acknowledging a lack of charm both in herself and Laura. They perceive themselves as too secretive or straightforward to engage others effectively. This acknowledgment carries a sense of humility mixed with resentment, highlighting an internal struggle with their identities.
The influence of their upbringing, particularly from Reenie, is evident. She instilled in them the belief that their true selves should be sufficient for acceptance, implying that they shouldn't feel compelled to conform to social expectations. This creates a deep-seated conflict between their authenticity and the societal norms of charm and allure.
