I loved this woman. You can't just turn off that kind of feeling. But I loved a person who didn't exist. I loved someone Diana was pretending to be. Maybe the signs were there, but I refused to see them. Maybe I didn't want to see them.
"I loved this woman. You can't just turn off that kind of feeling," the narrator reflects, highlighting the depth of his emotions. Despite loving someone deeply, he recognizes that his affection was directed toward a person who wasn't genuine, indicating a sense of loss and confusion.
"But I loved a person who didn't exist. I loved someone Diana was pretending to be. Maybe the signs were there, but I refused to see them. Maybe I didn't want to see them," he admits, acknowledging his unwillingness or inability to see the truth about Diana's true nature, which ultimately impacts his understanding of love and reality.
