The speaker reflects on their past anger towards another person, acknowledging that their frustration stemmed from a deeper hurt about the loss of Michael and Lucy. They realize that they were unfairly holding the other person to an impossible standard of perfection, while recognizing that no one is without flaws. This realization comes with a sense of relief and clarity.
By confronting their own feelings of anger and blame, the speaker understands that the inadequacies they saw in the other person were projections of their own turmoil. This admission appears to be a crucial step in their journey towards healing, as they reassess their emotions and the dynamics of their relationships.