It occurred to me that I was suffering from the dizziness of contradictions: the only pleasure that remains once you've decided you know better than the world.Accepting contradictions means not believing any more in the primacy of "true feeling." Everything is true and simultaneously. It's why I hate Sam Shepard and all your True West stuff - it's like analysis, as if the riddle could be solved by digging up the buried child.
The author, Chris Kraus, reflects on the inner turmoil caused by recognizing contradictions in one's understanding of emotions and experiences. This realization leads to a sort of intellectual arrogance, where one feels they can claim to know more than the world itself. However, this knowledge comes at the cost of genuine pleasure and connection with true feelings, as they become entangled in conflicting truths.
Kraus expresses disdain for works like Sam Shepard's "True West," suggesting that they attempt to unravel complex human experiences through analysis. She believes that these efforts fail to capture the multifaceted nature of truth, where multiple realities coexist simultaneously. Instead of solving life's riddles, digging deep into personal narratives may obscure rather than clarify the experience of being human.
