The character experiences a profound sense of liberation, feeling detached from all previous connections as if he has become a free agent capable of staying in a forbidden space for as long as he desires. This newfound freedom is perceived as a product of significant personal effort, giving him a sense of invulnerability that others cannot challenge or disturb. He believes they lack the authority to even approach him.

However, alongside this sense of freedom comes a deep realization of its futility. The character grapples with the idea that this liberty is ultimately hollow and desperate, leading to a feeling of meaninglessness in his waiting and isolation. It highlights the paradox of being unbound yet feeling profoundly lost.