Oh, God", he thought, "what a strenuous career it is that I've chosen! Travelling day in and day out. Doing business like this takes much more effort than doing your own business at home, and on top of that there's the curse of travelling, worries about making train connections, bad and irregular food, contact with different people all the time so that you can never get to know anyone or become friendly with them. It can all go to Hell!
The protagonist reflects on the difficulties of his chosen profession, expressing dismay at the exhausting nature of constant travel. He realizes that the challenges he faces while conducting business on the road far exceed those of managing his affairs at home. The stresses of finding reliable transportation, dealing with subpar meals, and the transient relationships with strangers add to his frustration.
He laments the lack of stability in his life, noting that the continuous movement and impersonal interactions prevent any meaningful connections. This internal monologue highlights the deep dissatisfaction he feels, leading him to declare that he would rather escape from this demanding lifestyle altogether.
