She did not know if her gift came from the lord of light or of darkness, and now, finally finding that she didn't care which, she wad overcome with almost indescribable relief, as if a huge weight, long carried, had slipped from her shoulders.
In Stephen King's "Carrie," the protagonist grapples with the origin of her supernatural abilities, uncertain if they stem from benevolent or malevolent forces. This internal conflict weighs heavily on her, causing confusion and distress as she seeks to understand her powers and their implications.
Ultimately, Carrie reaches a turning point where she no longer feels the need to categorize her gift, leading to a profound sense of liberation. This realization lifts a long-held burden, allowing her to embrace her abilities without the constraints of moral judgment, resulting in overwhelming relief.