She hoped he wouldn't ask what she was doing at the party. If she had to say she was a poet, her present situation, her overindulgence, would be taken as drearily typical.
In the narrative, the character grapples with the fear of revealing her identity as a poet at the party. She is concerned that if asked about her presence, admitting her profession could lead to assumptions about her lifestyle, particularly that her excesses are common among poets. This fear of judgment highlights her struggles with self-perception and societal expectations.
The moment captures a tension between her passion for poetry and the reality...