So she viewed time spent in the land of the normal as an investigation into the world of marriage-worthy men, even if she was unsure about her own interest in marriage. There must be one solid citizen who also had a spark of life, a sense of humor and adventure.
The protagonist perceives her time in conventional society as a quest to discover suitable partners for marriage, despite her own wavering commitment to the idea of marriage itself. This search reflects her desire for a meaningful connection with someone who embodies the qualities she values.
She is on the lookout for a well-rounded individual who not only possesses stable, responsible traits but also exudes vibrancy, humor, and a spirit of adventure. This search reveals her internal conflict between societal expectations and her personal aspirations.