There were times when, in her fury, she was convinced that she needed to drive down to Phoenix and let him know just how much of a bastard she thought he was, that he needed to know just what he had done. But she eventually realized that with his resounding, silent indifference, nothing she could possibly say would matter to him, and by the same account, he didn't deserve to understand how angry he had made her.He wasn't good enough to know how much she hated him.
The protagonist experiences intense anger towards a man who has wronged her. In her rage, she fantasizes about confronting him in person to express the depth of her feelings and show him the pain he has caused. These thoughts drive her to contemplate a confrontation in Phoenix, fueled by her emotions.
However, she ultimately comes to the realization that he is indifferent to her feelings, rendering any confrontation futile. She understands that her anger shouldn't be wasted on someone who does not value or deserve her emotions, recognizing that he is not worth the energy it would take to confront him about his actions.