What he really wanted was revenge. But against whom, and for what? Even if he had the energy for it, even if he could focus and aim, such a thing would be less than useless.
The protagonist grapples with the desire for revenge, a feeling that consumes him. However, he realizes that he lacks clarity on who his target should be and the reasons behind this impulse. This internal struggle underscores a broader theme of disillusionment and conflict.
Even with the potential energy to act, he understands that seeking vengeance would ultimately be futile. The reflection on his motivations suggests a deeper existential contemplation about the purpose of revenge and the consequences of acting on such emotions in a complex, flawed world.
