What Trixie wanted, most of all, what she couldn't have - to go back to being the kind of girl who worried about things like science tests and whether any college would admit her, instead of being the kind of girl everyone worried about.
Trixie longs to return to a simpler time in her life, when her biggest concerns revolved around academic challenges like science tests and college admissions. This nostalgic yearning highlights her transition from a carefree girl to someone burdened with overwhelming worries, shifting her focus from typical teenage anxieties to more serious issues that draw the concern of those around her.
The stark contrast between Trixie’s past and present emphasizes the weight of her current struggles. Instead of enjoying the innocence of youth, she finds herself entangled in complexities that surpass those typical teenage worries, illustrating the loss of her former self amid life's turbulent changes.
