You are twenty. You are not dead, although you were dead. The girl who died. And was resurrected. Children. Witches. Magic. Symbols. Remember the illogic of the fantasy. The strange tableau in the closet behind the bathroom: the feast, the beast, and the jelly-bean. Recall, remember: please do not die again. Let there be continuity at least - a core of consistency - even if your philosophy must be always a moving dynamic dialectic. The thesis is the easy time, the happy time. The antithesis threatens annihilation. The synthesis is the consummate problem.
The excerpt reflects on the profound experience of being twenty and navigating the complexities of life, death, and rebirth. It emphasizes themes of resilience, magic, and the sometimes illogical nature of one's existence. The speaker invites the reader to remember the innocent yet chaotic moments of childhood, suggesting that despite the struggles, there is a need to maintain a sense of continuity and identity within oneself.
The discussion of philosophy introduces a dialectical framework: the thesis representing joyful times, the antithesis embodying existential threats, and the synthesis posing ongoing challenges. This dynamic reflects the constant process of transformation and adaptation, highlighting the importance of memory and self-preservation in the face of life's uncertainties.