In "Darkness Visible: A Memoir of Madness," William Styron reflects on the experience of deep depression, describing the unsettling feeling of being accompanied by an alternate version of oneself. This presence, described as a dispassionate observer, witnesses the struggle against despair without being affected by it. Styron's portrayal captures a sense of isolation, as he feels both the weight of his impending self-destruction and the bizarre detachment from it.

The dichotomy between the actor and the audience in his internal drama highlights the theatricality of his mental state. As he prepared for what he perceived as his fate, he felt a deep sense of melodrama surrounding his experiences, emphasizing the complexity of emotions during such a tumultuous period. This narrative insightfully articulates the dual nature of existence in despair, resonating with those who have faced similar struggles.