Egwene reflected on the suffering of Meidani, feeling deep sympathy for her. She believed that no sister should endure such mistreatment, noting that while imprisonment is harsh, the torment and humiliation inflicted on her was entirely unbearable. The ongoing violence was a source of anguish for Egwene, causing her immense emotional pain as if a blade was piercing her heart.

As she witnessed the brutal treatment of her fellow sister, Egwene recognized that the physical harm they inflicted was nothing compared to the sorrow she felt for the White Tower's plight under Elaida's leadership. This internal torment overshadowed the external violence, leading her to an unexpected reaction—she began to laugh, finding a strange release amidst the chaos surrounding her.